Tonight, I'm missing All Time Low for the third time they've played a show in Anaheim (at least post-release of Nothing Personal) and it is really depressing. The first time I missed it was because I slept through the sale of the My Small Package Tour. The second time was (if memory serves) their tour with Yellowcard. Now I'm missing the Party At The End of the World Tour with The Summer Set (AND CONNOR AS THEIR MERCH)

It's bittersweet. I love this band so much because they have been the band made a huge impact in my life since seventh grade. They are the band that has calmed my nerves for the past five years. They are the band that gave me a few wonderful friendships that transcends distance. I could never thank All Time Low enough.

That being said, it is bittersweet because although I'm missing one of my favorite bands, I don't think I could handle seeing them again without Jessica by my side. I have to admit, Warped was outrageously fun. If I ignored the bitches that were standing in front of me acting all cool, it would have been perfect. I forgot how much I missed just being in the pit, even though it was a bit hard to see the boys perform, just jumping up and down and screaming the lyrics. Nothing ever beats that feeling and honestly that is the one thing I wanted all week. The feeling of absolute fun, being in an audience full of fellow fans, belting out the lyrics to the songs and forgetting about the world outside the venue walls.

Nevertheless, every time I've see All Time Low, I've seen them with Jessica. The first time being the Myspace Secret Show at Chain Reaction, even though we technically didn't go to see them together, we were in the same venue at the same show without even knowing. It was because of that show I started to talk to her. Then she invited me to the Glamour Kills tour the same year, giving me her spare ticket AND the meet and greet pass. She gave me the opportunity to meet my favorite band. It is a night I will never forget. It is the day we marked our anniversary too. November 8, 2010. The next time I saw them, it was the day after my birthday for the acoustic show at Tilly's. It was also the last time we saw them together but it is the band that brought us together (One Direction brought us even closer, but All Time Low is the band that started our friendship). It just wouldn't feel right not having her there with me.

It also doesn't help that The Summer Set is one of the openers and Jessica was the one that gave me their CD. Basically this tour was made for us but distance took the opportunity to see them again away from us.

Anyway, I hope whoever is at the show right now is having a blast. All Time Low is an amazing band and I love them.

I still need to purchase their new CD though.

Is it just me or when I read the title, I think of iDream of Dance, the iCarly episode?

Returning back to school, the one thing I was extremely excited to come back to was dance. It's always something I love to do, to be able to choreograph and dance with my friends. Granted, I didn't choreograph that much last year, but this year I am determined to change that. I've been so inspired by so much in the summer. Especially watching Step Up: Revolution. I have to say that it is the best Step Up movie by far. The dances just made me want to get up and take as many dances classes as I could. Then So You Think You Can Dance came back into my life... It's safe to say that I'm inspired so much. I don't know how to put it into words. Best thing is to post some of my favorite photos from my favorite pieces. The photos don't do the dances justice at all.

This movie is just brilliant. I think I may go purchase the DVD when it comes out... or ask my mom. Aha! (Photo credits to Tumblr and Google)



Compared to old seasons that I've been rewatching, this season of SYTYCD has been a bit lacking. Although my favorite guy at the moment is Cohen while girl would be Witney or Audrey--even if Audrey just got eliminated. She was so adorable! Nevertheless, Melanie and Marko's "I Got You" dance has got me hooked. It is my main inspiration for one of the pieces that I'm working on right now. Now to find some girl power inspiration for another dance.

Au revoir!

Before I leave though, when it comes to dance, Olivia "Chachi" Gonzales will forever be my inspiration. She may be a year younger than me but that only fuels my desire. She is such an amazing dancer and so free-spirited. I admire so much about it.

I'm probably killing myself just going into AP Literature this coming school year, but personally I think it is better than AP Rhet, so here I go. I should have started the summer work earlier, but it really doesn't matter. I was having a fun summer and I still am, but now I have to start cracking down and working. I'm starting with Hamlet.

I always find myself getting distracted when I read Shakespeare. I have my mom's Kindle Fire in front of me, with Act I, Scene II ready to read, yet instead I find myself blogging. Why? Like I mentioned, I get distracted. I remember how long it took me to read The Great Gatsby last summer. Although I fell in love with the book, it wasn't until I had faces to the names in the story that the wonderful book finally grabbed my attention. Anyone else excited for the movie coming out in December? Because I am. So this is my plan... put some faces to the various names of Hamlet. That and my photoshop has been open for awhile and feeling very neglected. I promise, once I finish this post, I will go back to reading. I promise.

My Ophelia would be played by Freya Mavor. She was the first girl to come to my mind and personally I think she would be a wonderful Ophelia. Then again, I haven't gotten to a scene with Ophelia yet, but Kate Winslet did play Ophelia in the 1996 film, and Kate and Freya do have a slight resemblance. Hm... now that I think about it, Emilia Clark would also be a wonderful Ophelia.


The leading man would be played with Joe Dempsie. Maybe because I'm having Gendry withdrawals (which reminds me, I still need to finish the second season of Game of Thrones). Nevertheless, I think that Joe fits the role of Hamlet well... I think. From what I've read, Joe seems to fit the character well.

Now that I think about it, I could just put GoT characters as Hamlet and it would work. Too bad my baby, Arya, would not fit in. Nor would Bran.


From Magneto to Mr. Rochester, I have a feeling that if there was to be another Hamlet movie, Michael Fassbender would make a wonderful King Claudius. He can easily pretend to show no remorse for being the one to have killed King Hamlet, yet act out the crazy king willing to do anything to keep his crown.


I'm a bit bias when I came to picking the late King Hamlet. I kind of just went for someone who looked like an older Joe... and that lead me to Viggo. Which reminds me... I really should start the LoTR trilogy. I want to see Martin Freeman in the Hobbit so badly.


The wonderful Joseph Morgan as Laertes seems fitting enough. Although Joseph doesn't really look like a complete follower, he has been shown well as Klaus in TVD to be a man of vengeance.

For now, that will be it. I know I still have a casting for Gertrude, Polonius, Horatio, and various more (damn 18 character play). I might get to it. I really need to get back to reading.

I guess it is time to actually update this. I really don't have much to update that isn't One Direction or summer... and I personally don't have much to comment on that other than posting pictures. I want to keep this relatively interesting.

I've said this time and time again, but I will always be true. Dance concerts are the highlights of my school year and I feel completely honored to be able to participate in my third dance concert performance last night and tonight.

There are times when I take my role in my dance class for granted, but it is the concert that makes me realize that my hard work really does pay off. Hours upon hours of work and sweat in an audition, then being able to share the stage with all these other amazing dances... I don't know what is better. Especially now that I know how much hard work it really takes to choreograph your own dance and have to perform it on stage. Whether or not people noticed how much we screwed up, we fucking killed it. I put my heart out on that stage.

Sadly, this concert is also the seniors' last dance concert at school. I remember the first dance concert I attended, the one dance that I remember is Clay and Kelley's. I remember telling Danielle "I can't stand being in the audience, I want to be on that stage." So thank you, Clay. Thank you so much for inspiring me to join the dance program. I doubt I will ever get to tell you that, but you are the reason I applied for beginning dance for my sophomore year. Thank you for being the one that helped me start this all off. Maybe one day I'll get to tell you... hopefully.

Every single senior this year, to the ones I've become friends with to the ones I've admired from afar, you all have inspired me to try my hardest. Ann, Renee, Sylvia, you three all started out just like me, a sophomore in beginning dance. Now each of your are in Advanced and after this month, moving on from your high school career. You three give me the hope that I can and will improve with time. You each have inspired me to try my hardest whether it is just a small dance in class or performing to a full house of friends and family. I could never thank you enough for what you've helped me do.

To the girls and guys in beginning dance. You may have annoyed me to the point where I wanted to punch you, but I truly wish that each one of you tries to take dance once again. It is such a rewarding class, physically and mentally. You make friends and memories that you will cherish for years to come. Do not take what you get for granted. I understand that the dances are not as sophisticated as you wish them to be, but what matters is that you perform with all you got, whether you only have one dance, or five. To Danielle, Sarah, and Joey... I am immensely proud to have been able to share the stage with you three. Having my friends cheer my on from backstage and sidestage is as rewarding as hearing my name being shouted out in the crowd. I love you three and I cannot wait for another dance concert.

To my Intermediate Dance Class, you guys have become my family this year. From everything we've been through, that one hour in class means the world to me. Going to dance every day was my escape from the world outside that door. Whatever troubles I had, whatever problems I had to deal with, I left it outside. Thank you for sharing that world with me. To Rochelle, Megan, Emily, Kayla, Tiffany, Ploy, and Cheyenne, you girls prove to me that I can have a true family. I never felt accepted unless I was with you. Thank you so much for being there with me. I really do love you all.

Finally, to Ms. L. Thank you for seeing the potential in me. Not only just accepting me into beginning dance, but also believing that I could make it in Intermediate. Thank you for taking Swagger Jagger/Detention in the concert. You are my favorite teacher on campus and always will be.

This years dance concerts are over... and I have one more year to go. I will make it count.

Those are what I call my "lucky passes." Let me explain. Each one of those laminates forever hold a reminder of a special day in my life.

All Time Low
Although I didn't get it a show, and got it from the Straight to DVD package, it still holds a very special meaning. In STD, they show two different shows. One of them being the very first show I've ever seen All Time Low. Their Secret Show in Anaheim, Chain Reaction to be exact. That day, July 7, 2009, will forever hold a special place in my heart. I was literally in front of Alex Gaskarth, I could have tied his shoes together if I wanted. Jack Barakat mouthed to me that he liked my highlights AND asked if I was okay when I continuously got pushed into the stage. It was also the first time Jessica and I were in the same vicinity. The second show was Glamour Kills, 2009. November 8, 2009. The day I met All Time Low... and also the first time I hung out with Jessica. Jessica just gave me the GK ticket. Forever and ever a special day for me. Both shows I've gone to on complete luck. I never thought my mom would allow me to go the Secret Show. I never thought she'd let me go to the GK tour either. Someone else might not consider it lucky, but I do. The All Time Low pass signifies how lucky I was to meet All Time Low and Jessica. Five people who have changed my life.

VersaEmerge
The VersaEmerge one... I never thought I would be able to go to their first headling. Before this day, it was the last show I went to. Ryann was ever so nice to give me her extra ticket... that came with a meet and greet pass. That is the meet and greet pass. I left school in my Halloween costume, changed, and got to Chain Reaction to meet up with Jessica and Steven. I talked to Sierra, Blake, and Devin... Sierra still remembered me. She sang to me. She walked onto the side railing, stood above where I was sitting and just sang. It was pure epicness. Again... I got that ticket for FREE from Ryann. So much happened that night. It was crazy. I just found the post that Jessica wrote all about that show a few nights ago. I wanted to cry when I read it. So many memories...

Big Time Rush
Now this one was just complete luck. By chance last night, I was going through the BTR tag on Tumblr... low and behold I found a girl selling two tickets to the LA show for BTR. At 9:30-10:00ish at night, Danielle and I both got the okays from our parents and we planned it out. After stressing about getting to the show on time, we bought the tickets from the girl's mother, and we were in. I can't even being to explain how epic the show was. Although, I do have to admit, I'm still pretty bummed that One Direction wasn't playing the LA show, but nevertheless. Just watching those boys on stage, doing what they love. They've transformed from the boys I first saw back in 2009 to this amazing boys. Listening to Cover Girl, Worldwide, City Is Ours... It was just beautiful. And I got to spend the night with my best friend. I couldn't have asked for a better Saturday.

Now... I cannot WAIT to add a One Direction laminate to this keyring one day.

This is actually a (decently) old post from my other blog, but I felt the need to post it here.

Here is why One Direction means almost the world to me.

When I first saw the boys on my dashboard, I disregarded it. I found out their name from the posts, but the only one I really could remember was Harry Styles. His face just stuck to me. Maybe it was because I thought he looked like Jake T. Austin. Hahaha, but at first I just saw them as these cute boys that Sam, Christine, Rosalind, and Paige would post. No big deal.

It was then I saw the spams about them being on the Big Time Rush tour and decided “Why not. I’ll go look them up on youtube.” That’s the first time I ever heard “What Makes You Beautiful.” I couldn’t stop listening to it. Then I caved… I asked Christine to send me their single on November 5, 2011. I played it, then would play another song, but always felt the need to go back to WMYB, but it wasn’t until Jessica that my love grew.

Originally, I started to listen to them because my best friend and I were so adamant on going to the Music Sounds Better With U Tour. I was so interested in seeing why so many girls were saying “I’m only going to go see One Direction and leave before Big Time Rush get on stage.” As a Rusher though, that hurt, but I didn’t know that my Directioner life would completely surpass my Rusher life.

Please don’t get on my case about finding them that way.

So I knew who Harry was, and by extension Zayn because of Christine, then Jessica started to listen to them. By here, I was calling myself a closet directioner, secretly listening to WMYB on a daily basis. Honestly, I was always afraid to reblog them because I knew Jessica’s harboring hate for boybands. Yet, she started to listen to them. She texted me and I started to spam her with pictures. That night I found out all their names. Hahahaha. That was also the night I downloaded Up All Night (I thought it didn’t come out yet… I was wrong). Thus began our obsession. She is now my Boo Bear.

I started watching all the x factor videos and their music videos. Jessica and I spent so much time doing that. It was crazy. Hell we’ve stayed up until 2 AM watching and talking about them with Christine.

It’s crazy how they came into my life in such a way. My life has spiraled down into a routine. A boring and sick routine. My mom would always talk to me, get on my case about the SAT, my grades, and all this stuff about college. My friends were beginning to ignore me. I felt left out of my own friends at school. My best friend never replies to my texts. I felt alone, really. The last few months of 2011 were basically me just trying to get through my day. I bottle up emotions and push them to the furtherest corners of my mind because I get scared of what happens when I actually feel them. Things just go wrong when I truly express myself. So I hide, I hide behind a smile.

Then there is my boyfriend. My wonderful amazing boyfriend. We’ve been going out for so long, things just became routine. It didn’t feel special anymore, really. I felt like he was with me because he had this perfect idea of me in his head that he could stick to. (We didn’t have the best beginning of a relationship, but that is a story for later). There were days I felt like I was lying to him. I felt like he was the only one there for me and I was still pushing him away. It’s what I do. I push people away when they actually get so close to affecting me in a large way. I‘m still with him though. I honestly couldn’t ask for a better guy to have in my life at the moment.

Clearly, I wasn’t really happy. I wasn’t miserable, but I wasn’t happy. I went through my life “happy” because I don’t like people worrying about me. I prefer to make others happy, even though it may probably hurt me in the process.

It was One Direction that turned it around.

Their personalities. Their humor. Their talent. It was them who got me out of this funk I’ve been in. I’ve been so unhappy, lying to myself that I was actually happy. I never realized how unhappy I really was until now. I would watch their videos and I would really laugh. I would listen to their music on repeat with a stupid smile plastered on my face. They made me forget how much crap I have to go through. They aren’t my escape, but they were somewhat my salvation.

No, they didn’t save me from committing suicide or taking pills. I’m not hat kind of person, but they did save me from my own emotions. Honestly, I can’t tell you how many times I have cried already in 2012, but as soon as I would put on their song, I would feel at peace. At my friend’s New Year’s party, they would all be talking about something, something that I have no way to relate to and even if I tried, I felt like I would be shunned away. I just turned on Up All Night and felt instantly better. The first time I felt happy in 2012 was because I was listening to Up All Night.

I smile whenever I see references to the boys. I’ve almost cried when I saw Harry crying in the Year in the Making documentary. I wanted to punch someone for telling Niall that he doesn’t have the best teeth in the world. Plus my adoration for Harry Styles almost made me want to cut a bitch when she told me she thought he was ugly. Before the only time I felt even the closest bit to happiness was when I was in dance, and even then when I had to lead warm-ups, I used WMYB as the song.

Somehow, these boys just turned my life around. They actually make me believe what I tell other people. “Things get better with time,”

This may not be as dramatic as someone else’s post on the boys. I’m just a lost girl who found happiness in a boy band. I never really understood how a band could change someone’s life until now.